My Ex-lover is dead

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across point champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name…

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love…

Live through this, and you won't look back…
Live through this, and you won't look back…
Live through this, and you won't look back…

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to say

I'm not sorry there's nothing to say...



When I am going to see someone I haven't seen in a very long time I always get ultra nervous. Try and think of reasons why I should get out of the plans I have made. I get overcome by ridiculous amounts of fear and almost make myself sick over-thinking it. But when I actually see the person, or start acting out my plans, I am more comfortable and have more fun than any other time. I absolutely love having lunch with old friends. I had lunch with an old friend, I haven't seen in years today & the entire time we were both chatting the ears off one another. Sam has also been traveling and living abroad over the past year or two, having been to Europe, UK & South America so conversation was a plenty. I find that anything I fear, once the fear is overcome, by facing and going through with what scares me, becomes the most rewarding and enjoyable things I could think of. I am realizing this more and more and this is why in recent times anything I think of doing that scares me, makes me what to do it more. Today is a good day!